Me and my mum had the cutest moment earlier

my cpn came to see me and I got all upset.. she went home and i was still crying my eyes out on the stairs.. my mum gave me a cuddle and she was just running her fingers over the scars on my hands

29 May 2012 ♥ 2
why do i take drunk photos..?

why do i take drunk photos..?

29 May 2012
LOL Im planning to throw myself off of a multistory car park.

not sure if I can hold out for long enough though.

29 May 2012 ♥ 1
Toast Tea And My first Fag of the day :D 23 May 2012
< This is me, this isn’t just me being vain there is a reason for this post.  I haven’t slept since Thursday and even that was just a couple of hours. You see I was at work in the kitchen stacking plates by the door with my sleeves rolled up from washing up and these two young women were at their table by the door and one of them pointed to me and whispered to the other one and they both began to laugh. I carried on trying to ignore these two women but i could feel their eyes melting into the back of my head as their laughter rang in my ears. I held up for the 10 minutes left of my shift then began to cry to myself walking home. How is it right that two women can laugh at a sixteen year old girl like that? how could they make me feel that way. Those two women had not realized it but they had brought me down.. I started feeling suicidal that night and every time i close my eyes all I can hear is their laughter and all I can see is myself jumping off of the near by railway bridge. I can’t sleep and I don’t feel safe. Now I’m scared to go out of my house, today I couldn’t write a thing in my GCSE exam because I couldn’t concentrate and my heart was going to explode from the anxiety of being with all these people who could hurt me so bad, being bullied my whole life really fucked me up.  so, next time you go to make fun of someone.. just think about it? they might not be strong enough to laugh it off.

< This is me, this isn’t just me being vain there is a reason for this post. 

I haven’t slept since Thursday and even that was just a couple of hours. You see I was at work in the kitchen stacking plates by the door with my sleeves rolled up from washing up and these two young women were at their table by the door and one of them pointed to me and whispered to the other one and they both began to laugh. I carried on trying to ignore these two women but i could feel their eyes melting into the back of my head as their laughter rang in my ears. I held up for the 10 minutes left of my shift then began to cry to myself walking home. How is it right that two women can laugh at a sixteen year old girl like that? how could they make me feel that way. Those two women had not realized it but they had brought me down.. I started feeling suicidal that night and every time i close my eyes all I can hear is their laughter and all I can see is myself jumping off of the near by railway bridge. I can’t sleep and I don’t feel safe. Now I’m scared to go out of my house, today I couldn’t write a thing in my GCSE exam because I couldn’t concentrate and my heart was going to explode from the anxiety of being with all these people who could hurt me so bad, being bullied my whole life really fucked me up. 

so, next time you go to make fun of someone.. just think about it? they might not be strong enough to laugh it off.

22 May 2012 ♥ 5

creditmyweakheart:

One minute I’m the happiest a person can be, full of energy, talkative, productive and helpful. As my mother says “The absolute best person”

The next I want to cry, sleep, shut off from everyone, tear a huge fucking hole into my arm to feel slightly better again.

I cannot deal with this fucking shit anymore.

I don’t want to be so up and down all the time.　

22 May 2012 ♥ 4
Omfg why is there always so much porn on my dash when my dads looking 15 May 2012
Fucksake

Been so down lately I cried for 40 minutes earlier and my drama therapist tried to cheer me up..

I bled through my favourite shirt and it went all over my bed sheets it looks like I killed someone -.- I didn’t even notice until Norman was like omfg and my heart just sank.

I’ve got work on Friday looooong

1 May 2012

maybesomeeeday said:  Stay strong for me babess <3333


I’m trying :)x

1 May 2012

Anonymous said:  hey! im just wondering do you cover your arms in summer? or do you just show them all of the people? if you cover them, (in summer also) what kind of clothes, you know hoodies? thank you for answering, im really in trouble in next summer.


I cover them but occasionally if theyre healed up I’ll show them but it depends who I’m with.. I wear checkered shirts all the time they’re good because they’re light so you don’t get hot also long sleeved tshirts with a tshirt over the top or a hoodie - they don’t make people suspicious because that’s all part of my style but if your more girly then try light cardigans? They go with most things.. Hope I helped

1 May 2012
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